because i want to write. because i want to sleep in peace. because i want to wake up and stare at nothing and think nothing. because i want to stare at beautiful men. because i want to droole over beauty no end. because i want to scream and sing in a locked room. because i want to dance. because i want to talk to my friend. because i want to see my friend. because i want to do my wall. because i want to read that book, and that book, and that book. because i want to be wise. because i want to get back in touch with so many people that i've left behind, waiting for the right time to get in touch. because i want to love that boy. because i want to go for a loooong walk. because i want to invest some money. because i want to watch cricket. because i want to watch ' राधा की बेटियाँ कुछ कर दिखाएंगी '. because i want to ponder over my countries troubles. because i want to learn that song. because i want to be a muscle woman. because i want new running shoes. because i want to eat momos. because i want to eat chilly chicken. because i want my hair to grow real long. because i want to be a good friend. because i don't want to be scared anymore. because i want to wear the prettiest dress ever made. because i want to see a favourite actor in a new movie, soon. because i want noori to come out with a new album soon. because i want to hear from my little charming friend. because i want to know the girl next door. because i want that neighbours music. because i want to study. because i want to stare at men dammit. because i want my peace. because i want to be free. damn free.