"The Enemy"

Surprise surprise I read something sensible on the current terror issues between India and Pakistan. The Hindu Editorial, Pakistan: need for smart diplomacy, Amitabh Mattoo & Happymon Jacob.

The two of them are of the opinion that Indian action or response towards Pakistan has never taken into concern the various complexities of Pakistan. Our response has always been to an enemy so to say and the same is never going to help create a Pakistan that is at peace with itself and in harmony with the region.

Then they talk of the four likely possibilities of Pakistan's future, the last being Friendly Pakistan. And how even not supporting such a view on grounds of bias, prejudice is going to cost us a big deal. And thus based on just practicality or ideals our duty should be to act only and only in a way to promote understanding.

"Finally and ulikely as it seems today, there still exists a possibility of a Friendly Pakistan. It would be rooted in Mohammed Ali Jinnah's original design for the State: Muslim, Moderate and Modern. It is this Pakistan that an Indian grand strategy must systematically work towards constructing."

Sigh.

"Kaala Bandar" - "काला बन्दर"

The evil in her she saw in others. Now the only way to get rid of all the evil was to throw it all in the wishing pond and pray..

वीरानी हालत

'नवाबी हिन्दी' में तुम्हे एक कहानी लिख दूँ?
ख़ुद को कैसे खुश कर लूँ?
खुश हो लूँ बस।
हालत बड़ी बेकार है।

PS - the title is copied from Atif Aslam's album called "हंगामी हालत"

Neurotic and happy to be

Dear Z has diagnosed me to be neurotic.

Merriam Webster: Neurosis : A mental and emotional disorder that affects only part of the personality, is accompanied by a less distorted perception of reality than in psychosis, does not result in disturbance of the use of language, and is accompanied by various physical, physiological and mental disturbances (as visceral symptoms, anxieties, or phobias)

Psychosis : fundamental derangement of the mind (as in schizophrenia) characterized by defective or lost contact with reality especially as evidenced by delusions, hallucinations, and disorganized speech and behaviour.

बुलंद बिसमिल खामोश...

Grrr Grrrrrr (Clenched Teeth)

Do Dil - Noori playing/blaring (rare noori mediocre work)
Irritation in the throat
Frequent Sneezes
Want to fuck myself over, more than how fucked I am or have ever been.

Got to think of the biggest public health crisis of the country tonight but how the fuck do I get myself to do the research when all I ever seem to want to do is read Amitabh Bachchan's blog, Hamza's blog, Ali Noor's blog, Fonzy's blog and hope that Anumita , Prat, English August have written something. "God bless the internet" but it's fucked my life over. I have turned stalker, MIND I stalk like crazy. Celebrity's, lovers, friends even my mother. Damn the internet. And all this mindless shit I tell myself is research for the fancy books I shall write someday, I say I need to read all and as much as I can, and so what if I turn blind staring at my computer.

Crazy woman who writes for nobody. LoSeR!!