If I Died Today

I have always been scared of dying. But somehow I don't feel like that now, atleast today, not that something happened today.
Yes I want to live long, do all that I want to, but just that I'm not scared of dying anymore. I wouldn't be scared if I were to die today.
I am happy today. And yes if I live long enough I'll be damn good lawyer, I'll get married if I want to, travel, go back to old places and memories, read a lot and do it fast (sigh...), spend time with old friends, be happy. So many things to do, and I seem to be running out of time. But honestly dying is o.k. with me.
You know how all your life you keep hearing things like live life to the fullest like its your last day and things like that, but don't really give a damn coz for some reason we believe we'll never die. But honestly thats how I'm living now, O.K...... maybe trying really hard to do that. I don't want to be somebody who postponed living, somebody who just dreamt and longed and desired. Sigh...I'm free......and I live the way I choose to...........
Reminds me, I'm planning this trip to Ooty, all by myself. Will leave as soon as I get a two or three day break. Me by myself on those beautiful hills. Sigh.

My Wedding Day

My weddding day. Something I think about very often. What happens if it happens.....Not about who it will be, not even you sweetheart. Not about which friends will come. Not about Shally, Bhavna and all other friends from school coming home to Ranchi for the first time. Not about my house being decorated. Just about my specs. I wear glasses. My power is not that high but well I can't really see without them, and I'm bloody scared of wearing lenses. Not that I think I don't look nice, with my specs that is, but then I have'nt ever seen a woman wear glasses on her wedding day. And It's very important since I want to be able to see everything that day. Anyway if there ever is "My wedding day" , I'll figure out.

Addicted

Addicted. Addicted I am to the words of my poet. Write me a line or two sweetheart. Wont you?

Barefoot in the Rain

I've been going late to class, ever since this semester started and I haven't had breakfast in days. Crazy, but I like it like this. Things just happening and you not really doing anything about it. Joy, it is.
There was something I have wanted to do for a very long time - run in the rain. Not really long, I make sure I run each time it rains. The other day I was late for class again and it was raining and you know what I did, got out of the hostel, took my slippers in my hand and ran, ran barefoot in the rain, almost half the way. Boy! was it joy.

I Told Him....And I'm High...

Sigh....I told him. Gives me a high, I swear it does. That day I felt I could run faster than the wind. I was free, there was nothing I could lose anymore.
Now.....
The way he looks at me. God! Gives me a high, I swear, Imagine him knowing everything. I thought I was the one being smart and wise here, but it was he who ended up telling me something I had forgotten, something that i always believed - you never have to cry, you just have to keep dreaming....oh boy I felt like hugging him, like he was my dearest friend. Feels so good when he is around, imagine he knows everything.

And...there is just joy and nothing else....will see him tomorrow..sigh....and yes I'll let him cast a shadow on my face so that I can stare back in his eyes.......I'm high and I'm FLYING..........

Her Giraffe is Hers

No I said it wrong the giraffe doesnt long for her giraffe. The giraffe is hers. And that has nothing to do with the buffalo - ugly, beautiful who cares. It has nothing to do with him. She chose him. And he was hers.

The Giraffe Will Always Long for her Giraffe

Don't know why but kids fall very easily for me (look at the way i say it). By kids I mean those a year younger or so. Don't know what I do (hehee), never do anything to lead them on but just happens.

I met this guy, a kid and well....he fell for me. He got down to asking if I was seeing someone and I told him I wasn't. I asked him the same and he joked and said something like he looked like a baby elephant (he was a little fat), and so probably no girl liked him, and by the way I'm considered to be pretty skiny and so maybe that makes me look tall. Imagine what he said after that, something like this, - I'm like an elephant and you're like a giraffe!!

Anyway..........

So what if the giraffe meets an elephant or a horse or a tiger, the giraffe will always long for her giraffe.....and so what if he pretends to long for the big fat ugly buffalo. Giraffes are made for each other. He was made for her. It was meant to be like that and it will always be like that................